060409 is love.

2010-01-13T20:01:00.001+08:00

I Wish i had it here.

2010-01-13T19:52:00.001+08:00

2nd post.
What's going on with me?
Why's all this emotions happening so suddenly?
My science teacher said that by smiling,we'll feel happier naturally.
But it's just lies! The more i tried to smile,the more i felt like crying.
Because i know, it's a fake smile.
I can't find myself,i lost me in you.
And now that you're not here, i totally lost myself.

2010-01-13T19:19:00.001+08:00

Should i keep? Or Remove it?
Should i leave it?Or close it?
Should i smile?Or cry?
Should i? So many questions.

2009-09-13T09:22:00.000+08:00

"You weren't actually there for me when i needed you,i was stupid."

Today's a better day :D

2009-08-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

Wake up shower blah bla bla,go bus stop.
Go in 175, sat behind with D.
HAHA,then one aunty sat infront of us.
Then she turned around and talk to us=.=here's the convo.

Aunty:Excuse me,im very tired and i want to sleep,can you wake me up when reach west coast park there?
Val:Erhh,ok,sure.
Aunty: Thank you boy(: What's your name?
Val: Oh,timothy. Why?
Aunty: Nothing,your a very decent and helpful boy.
Val: Thanks(:
Aunty: how old are you?
Val: 15
Aunty: oh,my daughter only 16.
Val: Oh,ok.
Aunty: want to make friends with her?
D: (trying to hold her laughter)
Val: Ehh,no thanks.
Aunty: Ok,remember to wake me up. Thank you.
Val: Sure.
D-Val: LOL,her daughter must have no boyf then she trying to find a guy for her.HAHA.
Val-D: Shhhh,don't talk so loud,people wanna sleep right. Wait she hear you how?
D-Val: you shy already just say(:
Val-D: Shut up,i wanna sleep!
D-Val: Need me wake you up?
Val-D: NOOO,goodnight! *pluck's earpiece in*

LOOOOOOOL.

Anyway,school was ok?first time i could actually concentrate on maths during maths lesson!Whoootszxz.
Elective module do sports!HAHA,play floorball then we got bored,then we took some balls and started to play soccer!:D 3N2 got to play soccer at indoor sports hall D: Mr Fan say maybe next week our turn?then they play floorball,we play soccer. Hope so bah!dont want play stupid floorball:(
Don't know what to update le!maybe update more tmr:P or maybe not?

Sayonara~ :D

2009-08-25T18:14:00.000+08:00

11 March was your first phone call i received. <3

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2009-08-21T19:38:00.000+08:00

Dribble good but can't shoot,LMAO.
ok lah,next time i dribble infront of keeper then shoot=.='

2009-08-21T12:02:00.000+08:00

Breakdown.

2009-08-19T21:30:00.001+08:00

Know why i on the music so loud?(:
it's so you can't hear me cry.

2009-08-17T13:14:00.001+08:00

Breaking down once again?:'(

2009-08-16T11:48:00.000+08:00

When i cry,i know im not crying alone.
When i cry,i've a feeling you're crying too.
Our hearts are linked as one. Forever<3.

Thanks.(:

2009-08-10T10:49:00.002+08:00

Thanks sister(you know who you are),
for being there for me in the middle of the night
when i needed someone. Even though it was just 35minutes,
i really felt much better after talking to you(:

And god i thank you for giving me such wonderful friends(:

2009-08-08T19:07:00.001+08:00

When will my chance come?Im guessing NEVER(:
You'll never understand how i feel,ever.
How much i wish you did.

2009-08-08T12:45:00.003+08:00

Where the fuck did all my mood go?:'(
Oh forget it,i never had mood in the beggining.
Im not angry,just sad and disappointed.
Never meet for a long time?still,if i were you i'd choose
to go out with BF/GF instead.
I wanna be understanding,i wanna understand stuff.
But it's not possible. You will never understand,
you're not me. If you understood how i feel,you'd
know how hurting it is. Have we ever went out once
for our anniversary?other than our 1st?which was fucked up.
I don't think so. I know they asked you first,but think carefully.
If i knew you had HL,i'd ask you straight away.
If i never ask you,you don't know how to ask me?
When you told me you got HL that day,i straight away asked if can go out.
Remember?how was i supposed to ask you first if i was the last to know.
Does this mean we'll never ever go out?EVER?haha.
I guess anniversarys are stupid if all we do is say "happy __month".
What's the point? I wanna go out with you,but you always cant.
Now you can,you chose to go out with others.
It's not whether your still going or not,it's what you intended to do.
Which was to go with your friends.
I try to find you everyday after school,because imissyou.
i wanna see you,hug you. But if i can't find you,did you even bother finding me?no.
now there's a chance,you don't even bother asking me. So others ask you first,
i don't get a chance anymore. just because i was the last to know.

There's no what if(:

2009-08-08T08:33:00.000+08:00

baby,
your a good girlfriend,trust me(:
imissyoualot too,i wanna hug you every second but it's not possible:(
not seeing you for a day drives me crazy too,but it isn't just one.
it's till tuesday!:( every second passes so slow without you here:( It sucks.
i know you cherish me,i cherish you too. ALOT.
So what if alot of girls say i handsome?they also nvr ask for my number :D.
There's no what if.
I won't leave you.
I won't disappear.
I will always be your boyfriend(: for as long as you don't leave me.
iLOVEYOUALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT too!(: i can feel your love,trust me.
you've changed alot since the day we've been together till now.
but it's always changing in a better way,that makes me so happy(:
im glad i could be there for you,i will continue to(: i hope :(

Baby,im ready(: im ready to accept your promises.
you're a good girlfriend,trust me alright.
I won't leave you,i won't let go.
Not today,not tomorrow,not for as long as i live.
As long as you walk this path with me(:
i don't wanna lose you too,i never do.
iloveyoubaby<3.
Don't think so much alright?
im yours and only yours.
I belong to you and no one else(:

2009-08-04T18:22:00.002+08:00

How do i walk a new path,when every path i choose is so depressing.
Every path i turn to,there's always another reason to cry.
There's always hurt,sadness. I don't tell you everything,
because i want you to see me smile,not cry. :'(

2009-08-03T12:33:00.000+08:00

Booyahxzzxzxzzx :D

Love.

2009-07-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

That moment , when you kiss someone
and everything around you becomes hazy
and the only thing in focus is you and
this person and you realize that that person
is the only person that you're supposed to kiss
for the rest of your life and for one moment
you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh
and you want to cry because you feel so lucky
that you found it and so scared that it will
go away all at the same time.
i opened up my eyes,i saw closely what i wanted.
and it was to love you with all i got(:
never giving up(L).
I Love you baby<3 :D

(:

2009-07-23T18:12:00.003+08:00

When i received that message,i looked out the window.
I looked at the sky,i thanked daddy,for letting me know the truth.
What i thought all along was just a lie i guess.
Im happy,i am. Because now i know the truth.
But still,i need a shoulder,i need one badly.

2009-07-20T18:07:00.002+08:00

can't wait for tmw!SOCCER SOCCER MOVIEEEEEEEEEEE!:D

GTFO K?FML:(

2009-07-20T09:19:00.002+08:00

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I E T A H Y M E F I L

2009-07-20T08:20:00.001+08:00

i tried to think about the little things that made life worth living,but there's none?:'( there used to be. Where'd the little things go?

:(

2009-07-19T09:28:00.000+08:00

what a good dream,but it's not what it seems in real life.
why?
Daddy,why?

T_T?:D?!D:?!=(?!

2009-07-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

asdfl'adsfkmadf;fkO_O!!

2009-07-17T11:35:00.000+08:00

cpa lesson boring like shiiiiiiit!D:!
time to play games:D!BYE.

Boo~

2009-07-15T20:09:00.002+08:00

Bored?or did i mean to do it?O.o?(:

2009-07-13T18:20:00.001+08:00

all the deepest darkest secrets or what i feel can only be found at my house(:

(:

2009-07-13T18:18:00.002+08:00

im gonna keep everything inside of me,no matter how happy,sad i am.
No matter how much i need someone to talk to,i will just keep everything inside of me.
i won't confide in anyone anymore,i'll just keep everything to myself.
girlfriend,sorry i can't keep my promise. i promised you i won't hide anything from you. But i won't be telling anyone anything,i will keep everything to myself alright. I won't even tell abigail or huimin or cheryl anything. So don't think that im hiding things from you alright.

2009-07-12T02:44:00.000+08:00

Insomniaaaaaaaaaaaa T_T.
can't get to sleep D: D: D: D: D: D: D:
baby,imissyou.

o.O.

2009-07-11T07:52:00.002+08:00

i loved yesterday(:.
i miss you alot baby,terrible headache:(
i've never missed you so badly before.
love you baby<3.

2009-07-07T15:28:00.000+08:00

And i thought today was gonna be a perfect day.

3rd month(:

2009-07-06T00:01:00.001+08:00

happy 3rd month anniversary baby,iloveyouALOT!<33

2009-07-05T09:01:00.002+08:00

tmw 3rd month le,so fast(:nothing to blog,BYE!

if it's you and me forever,
if it's you and me right now,
i'd be alright.

Bored,missing someone :O LOL

2009-07-02T09:37:00.000+08:00

cpa lesson so boring,txting renuka haha.
i miss dardar:(

=(

2009-06-28T14:57:00.002+08:00

baby,im scared to lose you:(.
i got all the answers i need from you,i was happy.
even though i got all the answers,why do i still feel scared?
why do i still have all this negative thoughts?
why do i still cry?
im suprised by how far love can take me.
'love' gave me emotions that i've felt before,but not so deeply.
it made me realise how impt you are
i never wanna leave you,i don't want you to ever leave me either,:(
i can't imagine life without you right now.
i wanna hold your hand tight,i wanna tie our hands together.
i wanna hug you so-so-so tight,and i never wanna let go.
i wanna be by your side forever,and never leave you!never.
im very happy you changed,you showed what i wanted most.
you're not the only one that is scared,im more scared then you are.
i don't know how come i can fall so deeply in love with you,but i just am.

Sometimes i wish i'm the only girl you talk to,the only girl you missed,the only girl you loved,the only girl in your heart,the only girl that entered your life,but i know it's impossible..
this is what you said,but for me i wish that i was the only boy.
i will love you,care for you forever and ever,i will never leave you or break you heart ever again.
i will stop the bleeding in your heart,if i can't,i'll just slower the bleeding.
you made me realise how big the word "promise" is and how important it is.
i will never break another promise no matter what,whether it is small,or big.
you said hurt you like how you hurt me,break your heart for what breaks mine,
do anything to you as long as it makes me happy,but guess what?
loving you with everything makes me happy enough.
there's alot of better girls,i agree. but none are as special as you<3
i will never like another girl no matter how pretty,cute they are.
i just want you,you,you and only YOU!:(
i know it's not easy to wait 3years,alot of things will happen.
but it doesn't matter,i still will wait!because i know it's worth it.It is.
i wanna cherish every second i can spend with you,talk to you.
iloveyou ALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!<3333333
baby,don't ever leave me ok?:(
im really scared you will leave me,im more scared than you are.Trust me.
im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared!:(i wanna hug you right now,i wanna hug you so tightly and never let go,i wanna spend every second i have in my life with you,but i know it's not possible,not now.
but whenever you ask me out,no matter what,i will say yes,no matter how busy i am.
because i love you<3.

2009-06-25T19:41:00.002+08:00

Baby,May27 was the last day i could see you before june hols,haven't seen you till now:( but nvm!finally tmw can see you!hahah,after th phone call you made i just smiled to myself like a retard,and i couldn't stop smiling. i meant every word i said to you,every promise i made to you on msn the other day,and i won't break the promises no matter how small it is,because a promise is a promise like you said. I don't know why im just so deeply in love with you(: i can't imagine life without you right now, im sorry for hurting you so much before last time,let's stay happy together alright?<3when you're happy,im happy. when you're sad,im sad. i will share all your burdens and you will share mine too. yeah,we've been through alot alot together,there's more to come,let's hold on together ok?(:love you.
remember,what's mine is yours also k?<3

2009-06-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

wake up,brush teeth,wash face then i went t watch tv!just for a short while,hahah. showered then i went to find my mom during her lunch break,shopping,WHOOO~haha(:blablabla,then went to tiong bahru plaza cux my bro ask me go watch movie with him and friends,they keep saying funny things and make me laugh=.=after movie went home!but on the way home something happened,then i can't stop smiling!Wahahaha<3.

lalala,tralala. lmao.

2009-06-20T13:03:00.003+08:00

Whoooo!~cousins coming over tonight!<3
i wanna hug themmmm,muahahahah<3
i want my old life back(:
easy to start,hard to quit.
going to church really changed me.
thanks huimin for bringing me^^.
ever since then,i've been praying everday,everynight.
i cry everytime i do,because i can say what i want,and it's hurtful things
which i want to become better:(.
im sure Daddy will answer my prayers someday,i will wait(:
should i get my old life back?will i regret it?
idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk,idk:(

the old timessss (:

2009-06-19T22:21:00.005+08:00

sleep sleep sleep!bwahahaha!then celene wake me up :( :( .
supposed to meet them at 10!but i woke up late,hahaha.suddenly
felt like eating subway cookies!then i ask celene help me buy first
she really buy:P so kind lahh. then i bus-ed down to vivo reach around 10:45.
then i saw marcus! then quenten called me we walk walk walk to find him=.=.
nvm skip to the part where we met up with everyone:P. went t buy tics,
then we went to sentosa! then we bought a volleyball and went to play,haha.
got bored then me and quenten started to kick it instead:P we wanted to swim,
then rain!BOOM!D: but nvm,haha barely 5mins rain stop already=.=then we went
swimming!HAHAHAH. so fun! me,celene,quenten,avery swam to the other side,lmaoo!
so tiring sia! but so cool uh,haha. got starfish! feels like rubber like that=.=. swam back,
shower then we headed to vivo!ate at superdog,then we went t play arcade! play until
crazy like that,hahahaha. today was an awesome day lah,had alot of fun!all my worries
and troubles just got washed away!but it all came back when i went home,and saw some stuff.
anyway!end off with some pics:P the group pic is with celene:( she left her cable at msia,AHHH D:careless girl! will upload group pic when i get it,xD. I LOVE CELENE,QUENTEN,WENQING,MARCUS AND ALL OF THEM LAHHH:D(celene forgot to hug byebye:(. i go cry,lmao kidding:P)
can't wait for next outing^^
oh yeah,VIVIAN CHO YAN LI, i love you!:P

mixed-feelings:(

2009-06-14T14:01:00.006+08:00

i want to be loved by you,but not like this.
our r/s is slowly drifting apart.
Daddy told me to let go,the answer was infront of me.
but NO,i can't let go,i just can't:(.
i may have broken a simple promise before,it's because the promise didn't mean alot.
but i promised i will never let go no matter how tough,hurtful it is.
And this is a promise i swore to myself i would never break!
you say you love me,you don't show it.
you say you care for me,you don't show it.
you say deep down you do,but what's the point if you're not showing it?
all i want is you to show me that you love me,is that too much to ask?
im lost,confused,broken down.
i've done everything i could,i've given you everything i had.
and you changed,but you changed back.
it hurts alot knowing what i've done over the past 2months was empty.
it all just got washed away?
even though our r/s seems like it's drifting further apart,but i still love you
as much as i always did before.
Do you still love me like you did?
i miss you alot,i really do.
But the old you:(
Did i do something wrong?tell me,i will change. For you.
but if you truly love me,please show me?
don't keep it inside,don't hide your feelings.
i don't like the way you talk to me sometimes,it's just so cold?
it's as if i was a NOBODY.

i know your personality,i've seen your good/bad sides.
you can be cold at times,but i still love you for who you are.
but all i ask for is you to show a little more care,is that too much?
i still love you,ALOT<3
Im just like a little boy,who needs love,care from his mother,
where you are the mother,and i am the little boy.
all i ask for is you to show your love,care towards me.
but of course in reality,it's girlfriend/boyfriend.

BOMBBBBBBBB!

2009-06-13T21:29:00.003+08:00

today service was
AWESOME!
celebrity day,so cool uh so many celebrities come!
went t eat kfc with bff(huimin),huishan after service><
didn't finish my chicken!:( no appetite uh~

i will treat you,the way you treat me.
i will show you how much it hurts(:

love is like a maze.

2009-06-12T18:29:00.001+08:00

broke down last night at 12++><. all the fucking bad memories just kept coming into my mind non-stop!I HATE IT:(

love is blind,
:O:O:O
i could've been much happier off with another girl
who has more freedom,but i chose to stay with you.
it's because i love you and it's real deep><.
3years till you get out of there?i will wait(:
the time's are tough,but i know we will be happy tgt some day.
and i will be waiting endlessly till the day comes.

cherish what you have.

2009-06-11T17:07:00.011+08:00

today's another boring day!LOL~ :D
i want my hair faster grow ahhhh!!
i want holidays faster end,i wanna go to school!
haha,at home so boring =X
it's only been a day but it feels like it's been so long
w/o baby:(

As time passes everyday,thoughts flow through my head every second.
You can only live once and you can't turn back time,so i've decided
to cherish what i have and live life to the fullest. Sometimes i feel like
giving up,letting go. Im sure you feel it too,haha.
But the memories are STRONG,so i will hold on,just for you<3. we promised each other we'll never let go no matter what and we'll go through everything together no matter how tough it is, let's not break that promise alright baby?i love you:P

booooreeeed!:(

2009-06-10T14:12:00.006+08:00

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i want this cannon to boom my head T_T~ Lol

so random eh?:D
Hehehhh,vcyl i miss you!faster come back from camp uhh:( i wanna hear your voiceee D:

what's wrong with me?:(

2009-06-08T17:45:00.003+08:00

vivian cho yan li'baby,
im sorry i misunderstood you,hurt you,over and over again.
your words mean alot to me,if i say i trust you,you'll tell me to keep my trust to myself.
i know nothing i do can make up for what i've done,i just keep repeating the
same mistakes over and over again,i never learn my lesson do i?
you don't wanna hear me say sorry or i really didn't mean to do it,fine.
those words will never come out of my mouth ever again,never.
you tell me th truth not wanting to hide anything to me,but i went ahead and started
thinking alot and ended up misunderstanding you. you must be thinking
where'd my trust for you go?it's not that i don't trust you!
it's just so many things have happened last time,th past is affecting me ALOT.
i even made you regret calling me. to be honest,i wouldn't be thinking so much,making all this
unecessary problems if i felt your love for me 100%. but it's just sometimes
the way you talk to me sucks,and everytime that happens i begin
to doubt your love for me. you can be so sarcastic when your angry,and when
you are you can really hurt me alot. but i know it's all my fault that i made you say all the
hurtful words. i guess what i've done this time really hurt you alot,
when we were together the 1st month,we quarreled at least once a week.
even after,we still quarreled sometimes. but after wednesday,we didn't
quarrel for quite awhile. Did you notice it?i enjoy not quarreling with you,
i enjoy laughing together with you over the phone,i enjoy everything i do with you,
everything except quarreling with you):
it's because after wednesday,everyone felt you changed?you loved me more?
that's why i felt less insecure,but i guess you won't love me as much anymore
after what i've done to you,im sorry i spoiled your mood.
and it's all my fault,i always hurt you,
i don't know what's happening to our relationship seriously,i know that
i still love you alot no matter what. but i made you cry,AGAIN.
and nothing i do can make up for it. now i guess you won't even
go out with me when you get homeleave,i really don't know what i've done this time.
but i will do anything it takes,just for us to be happy together again.
even if it's the impossible,i will try!but you say nothing i do
can make up for it,i really don't know what i should do now.
i really don't want to lose you :( i don't know when will you forgive me,
but i really hope you will forgive me one day. i long to see you,
i really wanna go out with you,i just wanna hug you so tightly.
but after what i've done,i don't know if you'll still go out with me?
will you still love me like you did?after i hurt you so badly,
will you? you gave me chances over and over again,but i always spoil it.
I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!
but i really love you alot<3i hope you will forgive me for hurting you:(
i love you<3'

it's all my fault:(

2009-06-07T21:47:00.002+08:00

girlfriend:(,
i don't know what to say,
i don't know how to make up for it,
it's all my fault,
all i can say is im sorry,but it's all too late.
and it's all my fault:(

i regret not saying what i should've said last night,
it's a big regret but it's all too late:(
i promise i'll make up for it when you can go out!
and it's a promise i won't break<3

060609O: 2nd month :P

2009-06-06T20:22:00.007+08:00

EHH!i miss my cousin ah!i sleeping then she suddenly come hug me!i wish it was someone else who hugged me:(.i feel like drinking bubble tea :X all huimin fault uh! haha <> PA JIAOOO,you make my day ah bff,haha!:P i wanna download so many songs and put in my phone :( but don't know where to download,D:

Huimin,
thanks for being there for me whenever i need you,each time i cry or feel sad or anything you're always there for me,you even standby till midnight just incase i might call you><,you never fail to cheer me up:) i rmb that time on the bus i cry then you did ms swan face!HAHAHA,super funny ah!i don't want to laugh also cannot ><.

Abby,
thanks for being there for me whenever i need a listening ear,i will be yours if you need one too alright?(:

i thank god for these 2 wonderful bff's (:

(Valerio Capone:Vivian Cho)
2nd Month Anniversary<3
VIVIAN CHO YAN LI I LOVE YOU<3!

Vivian Cho Yan Li!,
baby,
thank you fr coming into my life
and changing it,it's been 2mnth
since we've been together,we've been through
alot but there's more to come. we promised
each other we'll go through it together,
let's not break that promise ok?<3
i love you for life,and only you!
i've never regretted doing anything with you,
anything!(: i want you to stay in my life
and never leave me,ever!
my feelings for you will never fade,
i will love you till my last breath<3
where you stay affects our relationship,
but so what?i don't mind!i'll wait
till you can go out. it may affect
our relationship,but it won't
affect my love towards you.
just remember i'll love you forever
and ever till my last breath alright?
i will never let go of you and never leave you,
XOXO<3

i'll change,for you(:

2009-06-04T13:47:00.006+08:00

don't worry!i'll still be myself ok baby?change as in i'll stop cutting and stop breaking my promise. and another is i will love you moreeeeeeee!HAHAH<3

it's all the past(:

2009-06-03T20:49:00.010+08:00

thanks for the day bff's!i had alot of fun(:. dear girlfriend!don't think so much okay?friends are friends girlfriend is girlfriend(: i can have lots and lots of friends or what but only you can be my girlfriend okay<3!i love you:P

love that never dies

2009-06-02T19:21:00.003+08:00

rot at home whole morning/afternoon T_T. went t find my mom at suntec in the evening cuz she wanna re-new my phone contract then she wanna get herself iphone! but in th end re-new contract then she bought new phone for me! then she didn't get her iphone for herself >< love you loads mom!<3 just ate dinner,miss baby so much!:( hehehh,i love vivian cho yan li:D

Why?

2009-06-01T01:06:00.005+08:00

can't get to bed :( you say,you don't understand why i treat you so well..it's because i truly love you<3 you say you feel guilty,WHY?! i treat you well,hoping you would feel my love for you,feel secure!and most of all feel happy<3not feel guilty or sad! baby,it hurts :( i did so much for you,so much. but it's not enough!not enough to make you happy,not enough to let you feel secure. it doesn't matter if to you,you're not treating me well enough. just hearing your voice makes my life worth living..i really miss you alot,alot.

baby,im scared to go to bed:( once i go up
on my bed and close my eyes,the flashbacks
of our happy/sad moments keep coming into
my mind..then i'll start missing you very
badly and then tears'll start rolling down
my cheeks:( im scared to lose you!i really
wish i could hug you right now,and never let
go :(
Even if you really didn't call for 1month,
i would still treat you as my girlfriend
and love you as much as i do right now.
i love you more than anything in the world<3

Forever and Always<3

2009-05-31T11:50:00.010+08:00

it was 260309 that you liked me. it was 300309 that i had a feeling i might like you. it was 060409 when we got together<3 let's have a love towards each other that will never die ok baby?<3
i love you and miss you loads dar!<33

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ZBoPlCzuRY

Oh Oh, yeah, oh, yeah

If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I never make it on my own

Dreams can't take
The place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons
Why it's true

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
In the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

Movin' on, I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just got to let you know
I never wanna let you go

'Cause when you look me in the eyes ( because)
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright (its alright)
When you're right here by my side ( by my side)

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes, oh, yeah, ahhh
Whoa, yeahhhh!!!!!

2009-05-30T07:59:00.008+08:00

baby didn't call yesterday :(,i feel our relationship is falling apart,i feel that you don't love me anymore. i woke up at 12++ last night,couldn't get to bed :( baby,i've been thinking alot lately..im scared you'll leave me. i want you to tell me im thinking too much :( i don't want what im thinking to come true. i remember the time we chatted till 3++ midnight,even though i had a terrible sore throat. i remember everything we did together,i don't want it to end! baby,please tell me im thinking too much ok?not hearing your voice for a day just drives me crazy :( i miss you<3

been carrying my phone for the whole day,
it's 5:17 now. baby hasn't called,am i really
thinking too much?:(

Laughs also,:D?

2009-05-27T21:25:00.013+08:00

when i hear you cry over the phone,knowing that i can't be by your side hurts alot :( no matter how long the wait is,we must hold on to each other ok baby?<3

ILOVEVIVIAN!
I WANNA LAST FOR LIFE WITH YOU TOO<3
I PROMISE I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU,NEVER LET YOU GO!
HAHAH,6MORE YEARS! YA,NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS,WE'LL
GO THROUGH IT TOGETHER ALRIGHT.
I LOVE YOU MOREEE<33333!
many things will happen imbetween 6years,let's never let go of each
other ok baby<33.

i miss baby soo muchh,(:

2009-05-22T11:42:00.001+08:00

CPA Lesson,so boring!i miss dardar so much..read finish the whole diary but i just can't stop reading the sweet parts over and over<3. baby,don't ever leave me alright. No matter how long the wait is i'll wait!(:

i hate my life!:(

2009-05-18T17:37:00.004+08:00

i don't like my school,i hate my life! phone bill came $209, mom came in my room spazzing. Totally moodless:( my life's at it's worst right now,it sucks big time.
VCYL i miss you<3

sheeps are cute :D so random(:

2009-05-15T19:00:00.003+08:00

credits to huimin! Happy?:D

Random..haha(:

2009-05-15T14:35:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO ABBY AND ERIC!
abigail last long with eric and stay happy kay?(: idk what to post haha.

VCYL<3 i miss you:)
SS

I Care for you!

2009-05-12T17:40:00.005+08:00

I'm sorry i hurt you alot alot this time,it hurts me to see you hurt too!i don't mind you being sarcastic to me,i'll still love you!i want you to trust me,i do trust you. You don't have to earn it back!I've trusted you all this time actually.I don't mind you hurting me with all those hurtful words,i just don't want to ever hurt you!!I can't wait for tomorrow,i finally get to see you!i miss you alot:(

Things i want you to know!!
*I want you to know you mean everything to me.
*I want you to know you're important to me!
*I want you to know I LOVE YOU!
*I want you to know I'll always be there for you!
*I want you to know I' will never leave you.
*I want you to know that my feelings for you will never fade.
*I want you to know i really care about you.
*I want you to know I NEED YOU!
*I want you to know that i can be trusted.
*I want you to know I MISS YOU!
*I want you to know My feelings for you are true!
*I want you to know life is meaningless without you.
*I want you to know i can't live without you!
*I want you to know My love for you is deeper than my heart can go!<3'
*I want you to know everything that i say is true.
ILOVEYOU alright VivianChoYanLi<3. I Promise i'll never leave you too!
I'm so in love with you<3

i hate my life.

2009-05-12T11:36:00.002+08:00

cpa practical exam now,i use internet teacher don't know i don't care!vivianchoyanli,i miss you so damn much!!:(
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
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2009-05-12T05:00:00.001+08:00

5:00A.M. - This is probably my last post,i'll have to prepare for school after.
I did everything i could to make that 0.01% possible,i hope you really feel my love for you and how much i miss you!after reading everything if you still decide not to find me,i can't do anything. But i just want you to know that im always loving you no matter what happens!<3
i depended my happiness on that 0.01%. even though it's just 0.01%,i believe that it will happen.I really hope that i can see you after my paper ends!!i really need you by my side :(i really miss you alot :( i'll always be missing you! I need you in my life! I can't live without you okay.<3

VIVIANCHOYANLI,I MISS YOU!<3

2009-05-12T04:30:00.000+08:00

4:30A.M. - "I love you" is not enough to describe my feelings for you.Because i love you too deep!I need you so badly...I promise to love and cherish you forever never letting go!i don't want you to ever let go of me too alright<3 :(.

2009-05-12T04:00:00.003+08:00

4:00A.M. - I Miss you alot<3 remember when you said is the question "do i still love you?" then you said "i've to think first"? I hope you still love me!because i love you alot. when i say alot i really mean ALOT. i love you more than anything in the world kay.Anw i really miss you!:(

2009-05-12T03:30:00.001+08:00

3:30A.M. - Almost fell asleep,but i won't. I want you to know i really miss you alot!i will make that 0.01% come true!you told me to pray, i am praying. ILOVEYOU<3

2009-05-12T03:00:00.000+08:00

3:00A.M. - I know you don't like my attitude,i'll change!i don't wanna hurt you anymore..to see you hurt is akin to hurting myself!Please,just come find me later kay baby?i really miss you alot<3I need you,i want you to know that you are important to me!:(

2009-05-12T02:30:00.001+08:00

2:30A.M. - I don't expect anything from you,i just want you by my side :( i really wanna cherish every second with you!i really miss you alot..i don't want anything!i just want to see you!I wanna hug you:( i can't take it..it's really difficult and hurting to not be able to see you for so many days,i really really really miss you like mad!

2009-05-12T02:00:00.001+08:00

2:00A.M. - Really tired,baby i miss you so much.Chest hurts,don't know why..but it doesn't matter. no link!:D VCYL,i know you might not want to see me or you don't know how to face me and stuff like you said. But i really hope you'll come still!:( im missing you like crazy:(<3

2009-05-12T01:30:00.001+08:00

1:30A.M. - i need you more than anything in the world,you're my all. I Miss You!~<3 you said i'll always be your boyfriend,i trust you! im not being sarcastic. When i say i trust you i really mean it from the bottom of my heart. When i said i lost all my trust in you,i didn't really mean it. I just wanted you to show more love for me?i just love you so damn much!!

2009-05-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

1:00A.M. - What you said on th phone has got me thinking alot,i know i've been a terrible boyfriend.Forgive me okay? I'll do anything for you even if it means my life. I'd do anything just to make you happy!i know i hurt you alot since 060409,im sorry :( but i love you kay.<3I'll never leave you. IMISSYOU!:(

2009-05-12T00:30:00.001+08:00

12:30A.M. - looking at huimin's blog picture all th way down the old posts. Looking at you smile and thinking of how i've let you down really hurts,i just wanna see you v.badly. I miss your smile,i miss your laughter,i miss your hugs,i miss th good times we had,more importantly..i miss you<3 :(

2009-05-12T00:00:00.001+08:00

12A.M. - I cried,so what?i just miss you so damn much alright!I need you!i wanna see you :( i wanna hug you!:( i wanna see you smile again :( i love you.

2009-05-11T23:30:00.003+08:00

11:30P.M. - Im sorry i disappointed you,forgive me please?i'll make up for it.VCYL,i love you forever!

2009-05-11T23:00:00.001+08:00

11:00P.M. - im crazy over you,promise you'll never leave me :( i miss you so muchxzz.

2009-05-11T22:30:00.001+08:00

10:30P.M. - yanli i love you!<3 nothing will change my feelings towards you.

2009-05-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

10:00P.M. - im thinking of you,missing you. i love you :D

2009-05-11T21:30:00.002+08:00

9:30P.M. - im scared to lose you,i miss you so damn much!! i can't live without you.

2009-05-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

9:00P.M. - i miss you so damn much,come find me tmw kay?i really miss you!

2009-05-11T20:30:00.001+08:00

8:30P.M. - Im still missing you!:DD i miss you every second.

2009-05-11T20:00:00.000+08:00

8:00P.M. - i miss you, i miss you,i miss you, i miss you,i miss you!

2009-05-11T19:30:00.001+08:00

7:30P.M. - i miss you,if i could see you i would hug you:(

Peace.Love.Understanding.

2009-05-11T19:01:00.005+08:00

im tired of all this quarrels!it hurts alot each time we quarrel..im really sorry that i disappointed you :(
99.9% you won't find me tomorrow.
0.01% you'll find me tomorrow.
you told me to pray that 0.01% will come true. I Will. i'll show you how badly i miss you and i really want to see you!
even though 0.01% is practically impossible..i'll do anything just to see you
i will try,even if it's just a small glimpse of hope.

7:01P.M. - i hope you'll find me tomorrow,i really wanna see you very badly :(

You've got me speechless.

2009-05-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

So many things have happened,i've nothing to say except i've lost all my trust in you.
you'll have to earn it back yourself.

I Love You Forever, No Matter What.

2009-05-09T09:19:00.005+08:00

take this as if it's yesterdays post..couldn't update blog ytd cause mom took keyboard away!Anyway,this post is specially for VCYL my loved girlfriend. I can't get myself to HTHT with you cause im lost for words whenever i try to,so i decided to blast all my feelings on this post!!But no matter what i write here just remember i'll love you forever and always no matter what.
I held your hand whenever i could i hugged you whenever i could cause im scared to lose you. I don't want to be the one always taking opportunities to do things like that..after thursday i actually felt insecure even when im with you. I don't feel loved by you anymore?i don't feel cherished! You write things like "i miss you,im crazy,insane over you!" in letters and txt messages but when we meet i don't feel it..you don't show it!i know you don't know how to express yourself to me,that's what you always say. I too do not know how to express myself to you! But i'm trying my best to express myself,i've done so much for you have you not noticed?abigail,huimin have noticed.Have you? I felt one-sided,i cry almost everyday either because i miss you too much or i don't feel like you love me at all..i know sometimes you don't like the way i talk to you and we'll end up quarreling and stuff,but if you noticed im always giving in?Sometimes i don't like th way you talk to me either,but im just keeping quiet because i don't want to quarrel with you. Do you know how much it hurts me each time we quarrel?Sometimes you say stuff and do stuff to me because people tell you to,i want you to do and say things to me on your own will!What's there to be shy about?I really wish one day you would say "i love you" or you would just hold my hand or hug me or kiss me on your own..only when that day comes will i feel loved by you again. no matter how shy you are and stuff i want you to try and express yourself to me,try and show me that you love me..you don't have to buy things for me and stuff to express yourself. There are simpler ways.. yesterday you made me feel a little more secure. I hope this post doesn't end up making us quarrel..i love you alright<3 i really do(: you mean th whole world to me,nothing else is as important as you are to me!<333 IMISSYOU alot too! :(
OHH yah,1more thing! you said your a good liar..just don't ever lie to me alright?<3

I'm sorry,i love you<3

2009-05-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

sorry i've hurt you badly today,i regret treating you so badly and talking to you so rudely i wish i knew how i could make up for it!it was supposed to be our happy day but i screwed it up..i really regret it alot!ALOT!i miss you baby :(
i've nothing to say except im sorry and i love you <33

Whyyyyyyyyyy.

2009-05-06T16:32:00.004+08:00

not much mood to blog,i miss you alot my dear girlfriend!:(
it hurts me alot deep down inside when i look at your arm.
when i say alot i mean ALOT!each time i read th paper cheryl passed to me i feel like crying..i felt like i've not treated you well enough!!:( What kind of a boyfriend am i?Each time i look or think about the cut on your arm i really feel like crying you know?I once said to myself i never wanna hurt you ever anymore. I feel like a total failure? you said it isn't my fault,but i know it is my fault..im sorry dar'for hurting you time to time. :( Im sorry..!
just remember i love you forever,nothing will change my feelings towards you..XOXO'<3

Life Sucks Without You.

2009-05-05T15:41:00.010+08:00

went to school as normal. played badminton during p.e. then had mother tongue i plugged my earpiece and listened to music and kept thinking about her the whole 2 periods. music was boring i slept in the aircon for 1 period..had a class test during maths couldn't concentrate so i didn't really do the paper. Recess then some things happened i cried during english lesson,shafiq told me not to stress so much or think so much..i wish i could. Was biting my lips during science it bled..like alot of blood,my p.e. shirt sleeve is stained with blood cause i cleaned my blood on it. During assembly received a message about some stuff and i cried halfway during assembly,can't she see how much i miss her?i would do anything to stop time when im with her,been 5days it's killing me. I Can't take it anymore ok?I'm missing you more everyday,loving you more everyday. But it's really difficult for me not being able to see you for so many days alright,so many things happened i really wanna hug you so badly.You say you miss me too,but do you miss me as much as i miss you?My whole life now is about you,nothing else.I'd do anything just to see you now!

VIVIANCHO'IMISSYOU!:(

Crazy,Funny,Emo,Confused.

2009-05-04T21:12:00.003+08:00

Bwahahaha,shafiq was sleeping!i turned and took a picture of him.
sleep sleep sleep,i wish i could sleep peacefully like him.

Thanks huimin and abby for listening to me and making me feel better(:

crazy day..

2009-05-03T19:06:00.012+08:00

was rotting at home all day!till my grandma told me cousins and aunt were coming at 5+ they came at 5:56 to be exact!went swimming,there was me and my 4 young cousins! Gideon(Oldest),gordon(2nd oldest),Jenna(3rd),Gereath.(Youngest)
We had soo much fun!Gideon scolded Jenna S.O.B even though he's just 8years old-.- his father got mad and kept saying who teach you all this bad words and stuff,i couldn't stop laughing!HAHAH(: gordon kept asking me to throw him,he was supposed to step on my knee and then i'll throw him. BUT! he accidently stepped on the wrong spot,you know where(: Ouch but ok. I twisted my ankle and accidently cut my foot wthell-.-.We played till like 7 and then went home to shower and have dinner. Soo crazy,i just finished my dinner! kinda fast yeah?:DLove my little coussys omg they never fail to cheer me up(: But still,on my dad's birthday i promised him i would do well for my exams. I don't communicate much with my dad but i really love him alot,after i promised him he was very very happy he hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. And after his b,day he's been talking to me more and we tend to communicate more than we used to last time it's really wonderful. But i know im gonna fail badly this year's MYE cause too much things to think about and worry,no mood to study!I So feel like crying right now,thinking about how i made my father so happy on his b,day then now im gonna do badly for my MYE i seriously feel so fucked up!I can't imagine how depressed my father will feel after i promised him i would do well.I got his hopes high i made him happy but soon to come he'll be depressed,yet another broken promise to my father.
Now that cousins went home im back to feeling depressed and fucked up,feel like crying!baby i wanna see you so badly i wanna hug you so tight:(

VIVIANILOVEYOU!<3
I don't regret being with you i love you more than anything in the world.

i need you more than anything in th world(:

2009-05-03T11:42:00.006+08:00

hahah(: left to rot at home today,missing baby so much every second im not by her side.
emo-picture?:D got bored!

I Wonder what's life without you baby(: You mean th world to me!
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Baby,i miss you so much!!:(

2009-05-02T21:08:00.003+08:00

Blaah,woke up at 4+ this morning had a weird dream and couldn't get back to sleep. I Dreamt that i couldn't think of anything to get for baby on our 1st month ann,so i climbed down my bed and started making some stuff for her. Unfortunately i lost it?i was very sad! but nevermind,dad went out and came back with sushi!Yumm(:I Ate like alot of sushi and didn't really eat lunch,went to meet cher at J.E. finally im earlier than her for once?!:D we went to POPULAR to buy some stuff. then sh came after we bought something. Went to J.E. library,there was some stupid scanning thing at the entrance so many people queing up-.-. We got in then went to the 4th floor?i think,then we walked 1 circle then saw wynn,lynn and some their friends come up the escalator then we walked the opposite direction of them.Hahah(: then went to the lift then they came along too,wynn didn't even say hi omg-.-. We walked to IMM then went to mac's i was hungry then i bought double cheeseburger meal ate finish the whole meal i was sooo full!we sat there sh and cher took out their books and study while i listened to mp3 and was making present for baby's first month ann. Cher and sh got bored studying so they helped me with it. A young boy who sat beside me stood up on the chair and guess what?HE FELL,HAHAH i wanted to laugh so badly i know it's evil but ok(: baby called at 4+,5+ sometimes i really wish she didn't call me even though we didn't quarrel or anything. Cause each time she calls when i can't see her for a few days after i hear her voice i'll feel very depressed and sad i really want to see her very badly but can't.It's not her fault. Walked around IMM at around 530+ as we got bored sitting at mac-.-. We went in MiniToons cher and sh wanted to buy gummys. Blabla,we walked around a little longer quenten called and told me he can't make it for movies tmr,even more depressed. We bussed to Clementi Central went arcade awhile not even 10mins..follow sh buy her dinner then we went home. Walked to Clementi Bus Interchange to take 175 home,during the 45 minutes journey home in the bus all i could think of was nothing except Vivian'Dar. I really miss you alottttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
will blog again tomorrow.
I Love you forever and always Dar!<33.

Just created a blog,yay?(:

2009-05-01T12:22:00.004+08:00

ok,figured i've too much time to waste rotting at home so i decided to just make a blog with the help of cheryl. Hmm,let's start with my screwed up breakfast! I was eating my yummy cup-noodles and suddenly my mom came home when i didn't even know she went out and she starts nagging on how i must pass my exams and she asks me, "can you take 'O' levels next year?" and i got so pissed off i just quickly ate finish my noodles and went to my room-.-. Me and Baby's first month anniv this coming wed,i've stupid elective modules till 2++ wondering if i should go to school:( why's my school so freaking strick on attire-.-especially the hair?i wish mr.koh(both) would just drop dead and die..
I MISS VIVIAN ALOTT<33!

will continue to update my blog later on tonight or smth(:

Blaah,too bored just gonna update blog and end it here for today!
Didn't really eat lunch,was soo hungry but nvrmind i went finding snacks all over the house and ate alot of random stuff hahah:D. Was watching TV till like 3+ then i fell asleep and woke up around 5,i woke up missing baby so much i don't know why. Cher'says it's standard,hahah ok. Grandparents came back from chinatown around 5:30 they bought 3 packs of nasi-lemak for me,brother and maid to eat for dinner..i ate finish mine and was still hungry,my maid gave me both pieces of her chicken wing and half packet of her rice saying she couldn't finish.How nice of her?:D
ending off here now,will blog again tomorrow(:

Val<3Vivian Forever!