I Wish i had it here.

2nd post.
What's going on with me?
Why's all this emotions happening so suddenly?
My science teacher said that by smiling,we'll feel happier naturally.
But it's just lies! The more i tried to smile,the more i felt like crying.
Because i know, it's a fake smile.
I can't find myself,i lost me in you.
And now that you're not here, i totally lost myself.

Should i keep? Or Remove it?
Should i leave it?Or close it?
Should i smile?Or cry?
Should i? So many questions.