Forever and Always<3

it was 260309 that you liked me. it was 300309 that i had a feeling i might like you. it was 060409 when we got together<3 let's have a love towards each other that will never die ok baby?<3
i love you and miss you loads dar!<33

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ZBoPlCzuRY


Oh Oh, yeah, oh, yeah

If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I never make it on my own

Dreams can't take
The place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons
Why it's true

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
In the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

Movin' on, I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just got to let you know
I never wanna let you go

'Cause when you look me in the eyes ( because)
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright (its alright)
When you're right here by my side ( by my side)

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes, oh, yeah, ahhh
Whoa, yeahhhh!!!!!

baby didn't call yesterday :(,i feel our relationship is falling apart,i feel that you don't love me anymore. i woke up at 12++ last night,couldn't get to bed :( baby,i've been thinking alot lately..im scared you'll leave me. i want you to tell me im thinking too much :( i don't want what im thinking to come true. i remember the time we chatted till 3++ midnight,even though i had a terrible sore throat. i remember everything we did together,i don't want it to end! baby,please tell me im thinking too much ok?not hearing your voice for a day just drives me crazy :( i miss you<3


been carrying my phone for the whole day,
it's 5:17 now. baby hasn't called,am i really
thinking too much?:(

Laughs also,:D?

when i hear you cry over the phone,knowing that i can't be by your side hurts alot :( no matter how long the wait is,we must hold on to each other ok baby?<3

ILOVEVIVIAN!
I WANNA LAST FOR LIFE WITH YOU TOO<3
I PROMISE I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU,NEVER LET YOU GO!
HAHAH,6MORE YEARS! YA,NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS,WE'LL
GO THROUGH IT TOGETHER ALRIGHT.
I LOVE YOU MOREEE<33333!
many things will happen imbetween 6years,let's never let go of each
other ok baby<33.

i miss baby soo muchh,(:

CPA Lesson,so boring!i miss dardar so much..read finish the whole diary but i just can't stop reading the sweet parts over and over<3. baby,don't ever leave me alright. No matter how long the wait is i'll wait!(:

i hate my life!:(

i don't like my school,i hate my life! phone bill came $209, mom came in my room spazzing. Totally moodless:( my life's at it's worst right now,it sucks big time.
VCYL i miss you<3

sheeps are cute :D so random(:

credits to huimin! Happy?:D

Random..haha(:

HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO ABBY AND ERIC!
abigail last long with eric and stay happy kay?(: idk what to post haha.

VCYL<3 i miss you:)
SS

I Care for you!

I'm sorry i hurt you alot alot this time,it hurts me to see you hurt too!i don't mind you being sarcastic to me,i'll still love you!i want you to trust me,i do trust you. You don't have to earn it back!I've trusted you all this time actually.I don't mind you hurting me with all those hurtful words,i just don't want to ever hurt you!!I can't wait for tomorrow,i finally get to see you!i miss you alot:(

Things i want you to know!!
*I want you to know you mean everything to me.
*I want you to know you're important to me!
*I want you to know I LOVE YOU!
*I want you to know I'll always be there for you!
*I want you to know I' will never leave you.
*I want you to know that my feelings for you will never fade.
*I want you to know i really care about you.
*I want you to know I NEED YOU!
*I want you to know that i can be trusted.
*I want you to know I MISS YOU!
*I want you to know My feelings for you are true!
*I want you to know life is meaningless without you.
*I want you to know i can't live without you!
*I want you to know My love for you is deeper than my heart can go!<3'
*I want you to know everything that i say is true.
ILOVEYOU alright VivianChoYanLi<3. I Promise i'll never leave you too!
I'm so in love with you<3

i hate my life.

cpa practical exam now,i use internet teacher don't know i don't care!vivianchoyanli,i miss you so damn much!!:(
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
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I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!
I MISS YOU VIVIANCHOYANLI!

5:00A.M. - This is probably my last post,i'll have to prepare for school after.
I did everything i could to make that 0.01% possible,i hope you really feel my love for you and how much i miss you!after reading everything if you still decide not to find me,i can't do anything. But i just want you to know that im always loving you no matter what happens!<3
i depended my happiness on that 0.01%. even though it's just 0.01%,i believe that it will happen.I really hope that i can see you after my paper ends!!i really need you by my side :(i really miss you alot :( i'll always be missing you! I need you in my life! I can't live without you okay.<3

VIVIANCHOYANLI,I MISS YOU!<3

4:30A.M. - "I love you" is not enough to describe my feelings for you.Because i love you too deep!I need you so badly...I promise to love and cherish you forever never letting go!i don't want you to ever let go of me too alright<3 :(.

4:00A.M. - I Miss you alot<3 remember when you said is the question "do i still love you?" then you said "i've to think first"? I hope you still love me!because i love you alot. when i say alot i really mean ALOT. i love you more than anything in the world kay.Anw i really miss you!:(

3:30A.M. - Almost fell asleep,but i won't. I want you to know i really miss you alot!i will make that 0.01% come true!you told me to pray, i am praying. ILOVEYOU<3

3:00A.M. - I know you don't like my attitude,i'll change!i don't wanna hurt you anymore..to see you hurt is akin to hurting myself!Please,just come find me later kay baby?i really miss you alot<3I need you,i want you to know that you are important to me!:(

2:30A.M. - I don't expect anything from you,i just want you by my side :( i really wanna cherish every second with you!i really miss you alot..i don't want anything!i just want to see you!I wanna hug you:( i can't take it..it's really difficult and hurting to not be able to see you for so many days,i really really really miss you like mad!

2:00A.M. - Really tired,baby i miss you so much.Chest hurts,don't know why..but it doesn't matter. no link!:D VCYL,i know you might not want to see me or you don't know how to face me and stuff like you said. But i really hope you'll come still!:( im missing you like crazy:(<3

1:30A.M. - i need you more than anything in the world,you're my all. I Miss You!~<3 you said i'll always be your boyfriend,i trust you! im not being sarcastic. When i say i trust you i really mean it from the bottom of my heart. When i said i lost all my trust in you,i didn't really mean it. I just wanted you to show more love for me?i just love you so damn much!!

1:00A.M. - What you said on th phone has got me thinking alot,i know i've been a terrible boyfriend.Forgive me okay? I'll do anything for you even if it means my life. I'd do anything just to make you happy!i know i hurt you alot since 060409,im sorry :( but i love you kay.<3I'll never leave you. IMISSYOU!:(

12:30A.M. - looking at huimin's blog picture all th way down the old posts. Looking at you smile and thinking of how i've let you down really hurts,i just wanna see you v.badly. I miss your smile,i miss your laughter,i miss your hugs,i miss th good times we had,more importantly..i miss you<3 :(

12A.M. - I cried,so what?i just miss you so damn much alright!I need you!i wanna see you :( i wanna hug you!:( i wanna see you smile again :( i love you.

11:30P.M. - Im sorry i disappointed you,forgive me please?i'll make up for it.VCYL,i love you forever!

11:00P.M. - im crazy over you,promise you'll never leave me :( i miss you so muchxzz.

10:30P.M. - yanli i love you!<3 nothing will change my feelings towards you.

10:00P.M. - im thinking of you,missing you. i love you :D

9:30P.M. - im scared to lose you,i miss you so damn much!! i can't live without you.

9:00P.M. - i miss you so damn much,come find me tmw kay?i really miss you!

8:30P.M. - Im still missing you!:DD i miss you every second.

8:00P.M. - i miss you, i miss you,i miss you, i miss you,i miss you!

7:30P.M. - i miss you,if i could see you i would hug you:(

Peace.Love.Understanding.

im tired of all this quarrels!it hurts alot each time we quarrel..im really sorry that i disappointed you :(
99.9% you won't find me tomorrow.
0.01% you'll find me tomorrow.
you told me to pray that 0.01% will come true. I Will. i'll show you how badly i miss you and i really want to see you!
even though 0.01% is practically impossible..i'll do anything just to see you
i will try,even if it's just a small glimpse of hope.

7:01P.M. - i hope you'll find me tomorrow,i really wanna see you very badly :(

You've got me speechless.

So many things have happened,i've nothing to say except i've lost all my trust in you.
you'll have to earn it back yourself.

I Love You Forever, No Matter What.

take this as if it's yesterdays post..couldn't update blog ytd cause mom took keyboard away!Anyway,this post is specially for VCYL my loved girlfriend. I can't get myself to HTHT with you cause im lost for words whenever i try to,so i decided to blast all my feelings on this post!!But no matter what i write here just remember i'll love you forever and always no matter what.
I held your hand whenever i could i hugged you whenever i could cause im scared to lose you. I don't want to be the one always taking opportunities to do things like that..after thursday i actually felt insecure even when im with you. I don't feel loved by you anymore?i don't feel cherished! You write things like "i miss you,im crazy,insane over you!" in letters and txt messages but when we meet i don't feel it..you don't show it!i know you don't know how to express yourself to me,that's what you always say. I too do not know how to express myself to you! But i'm trying my best to express myself,i've done so much for you have you not noticed?abigail,huimin have noticed.Have you? I felt one-sided,i cry almost everyday either because i miss you too much or i don't feel like you love me at all..i know sometimes you don't like the way i talk to you and we'll end up quarreling and stuff,but if you noticed im always giving in?Sometimes i don't like th way you talk to me either,but im just keeping quiet because i don't want to quarrel with you. Do you know how much it hurts me each time we quarrel?Sometimes you say stuff and do stuff to me because people tell you to,i want you to do and say things to me on your own will!What's there to be shy about?I really wish one day you would say "i love you" or you would just hold my hand or hug me or kiss me on your own..only when that day comes will i feel loved by you again. no matter how shy you are and stuff i want you to try and express yourself to me,try and show me that you love me..you don't have to buy things for me and stuff to express yourself. There are simpler ways.. yesterday you made me feel a little more secure. I hope this post doesn't end up making us quarrel..i love you alright<3 i really do(: you mean th whole world to me,nothing else is as important as you are to me!<333 IMISSYOU alot too! :(
OHH yah,1more thing! you said your a good liar..just don't ever lie to me alright?<3

I'm sorry,i love you<3

sorry i've hurt you badly today,i regret treating you so badly and talking to you so rudely i wish i knew how i could make up for it!it was supposed to be our happy day but i screwed it up..i really regret it alot!ALOT!i miss you baby :(
i've nothing to say except im sorry and i love you <33

Whyyyyyyyyyy.

not much mood to blog,i miss you alot my dear girlfriend!:(
it hurts me alot deep down inside when i look at your arm.
when i say alot i mean ALOT!each time i read th paper cheryl passed to me i feel like crying..i felt like i've not treated you well enough!!:( What kind of a boyfriend am i?Each time i look or think about the cut on your arm i really feel like crying you know?I once said to myself i never wanna hurt you ever anymore. I feel like a total failure? you said it isn't my fault,but i know it is my fault..im sorry dar'for hurting you time to time. :( Im sorry..!
just remember i love you forever,nothing will change my feelings towards you..XOXO'<3

Life Sucks Without You.

went to school as normal. played badminton during p.e. then had mother tongue i plugged my earpiece and listened to music and kept thinking about her the whole 2 periods. music was boring i slept in the aircon for 1 period..had a class test during maths couldn't concentrate so i didn't really do the paper. Recess then some things happened i cried during english lesson,shafiq told me not to stress so much or think so much..i wish i could. Was biting my lips during science it bled..like alot of blood,my p.e. shirt sleeve is stained with blood cause i cleaned my blood on it. During assembly received a message about some stuff and i cried halfway during assembly,can't she see how much i miss her?i would do anything to stop time when im with her,been 5days it's killing me. I Can't take it anymore ok?I'm missing you more everyday,loving you more everyday. But it's really difficult for me not being able to see you for so many days alright,so many things happened i really wanna hug you so badly.You say you miss me too,but do you miss me as much as i miss you?My whole life now is about you,nothing else.I'd do anything just to see you now!

VIVIANCHO'IMISSYOU!:(

Crazy,Funny,Emo,Confused.

Bwahahaha,shafiq was sleeping!i turned and took a picture of him.
sleep sleep sleep,i wish i could sleep peacefully like him.










Thanks huimin and abby for listening to me and making me feel better(:

crazy day..

was rotting at home all day!till my grandma told me cousins and aunt were coming at 5+ they came at 5:56 to be exact!went swimming,there was me and my 4 young cousins! Gideon(Oldest),gordon(2nd oldest),Jenna(3rd),Gereath.(Youngest)
We had soo much fun!Gideon scolded Jenna S.O.B even though he's just 8years old-.- his father got mad and kept saying who teach you all this bad words and stuff,i couldn't stop laughing!HAHAH(: gordon kept asking me to throw him,he was supposed to step on my knee and then i'll throw him. BUT! he accidently stepped on the wrong spot,you know where(: Ouch but ok. I twisted my ankle and accidently cut my foot wthell-.-.We played till like 7 and then went home to shower and have dinner. Soo crazy,i just finished my dinner! kinda fast yeah?:DLove my little coussys omg they never fail to cheer me up(: But still,on my dad's birthday i promised him i would do well for my exams. I don't communicate much with my dad but i really love him alot,after i promised him he was very very happy he hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. And after his b,day he's been talking to me more and we tend to communicate more than we used to last time it's really wonderful. But i know im gonna fail badly this year's MYE cause too much things to think about and worry,no mood to study!I So feel like crying right now,thinking about how i made my father so happy on his b,day then now im gonna do badly for my MYE i seriously feel so fucked up!I can't imagine how depressed my father will feel after i promised him i would do well.I got his hopes high i made him happy but soon to come he'll be depressed,yet another broken promise to my father.
Now that cousins went home im back to feeling depressed and fucked up,feel like crying!baby i wanna see you so badly i wanna hug you so tight:(

VIVIANILOVEYOU!<3
I don't regret being with you i love you more than anything in the world.

i need you more than anything in th world(:

hahah(: left to rot at home today,missing baby so much every second im not by her side.
emo-picture?:D got bored!









I Wonder what's life without you baby(: You mean th world to me!
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Baby,i miss you so much!!:(

Blaah,woke up at 4+ this morning had a weird dream and couldn't get back to sleep. I Dreamt that i couldn't think of anything to get for baby on our 1st month ann,so i climbed down my bed and started making some stuff for her. Unfortunately i lost it?i was very sad! but nevermind,dad went out and came back with sushi!Yumm(:I Ate like alot of sushi and didn't really eat lunch,went to meet cher at J.E. finally im earlier than her for once?!:D we went to POPULAR to buy some stuff. then sh came after we bought something. Went to J.E. library,there was some stupid scanning thing at the entrance so many people queing up-.-. We got in then went to the 4th floor?i think,then we walked 1 circle then saw wynn,lynn and some their friends come up the escalator then we walked the opposite direction of them.Hahah(: then went to the lift then they came along too,wynn didn't even say hi omg-.-. We walked to IMM then went to mac's i was hungry then i bought double cheeseburger meal ate finish the whole meal i was sooo full!we sat there sh and cher took out their books and study while i listened to mp3 and was making present for baby's first month ann. Cher and sh got bored studying so they helped me with it. A young boy who sat beside me stood up on the chair and guess what?HE FELL,HAHAH i wanted to laugh so badly i know it's evil but ok(: baby called at 4+,5+ sometimes i really wish she didn't call me even though we didn't quarrel or anything. Cause each time she calls when i can't see her for a few days after i hear her voice i'll feel very depressed and sad i really want to see her very badly but can't.It's not her fault. Walked around IMM at around 530+ as we got bored sitting at mac-.-. We went in MiniToons cher and sh wanted to buy gummys. Blabla,we walked around a little longer quenten called and told me he can't make it for movies tmr,even more depressed. We bussed to Clementi Central went arcade awhile not even 10mins..follow sh buy her dinner then we went home. Walked to Clementi Bus Interchange to take 175 home,during the 45 minutes journey home in the bus all i could think of was nothing except Vivian'Dar. I really miss you alottttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
will blog again tomorrow.
I Love you forever and always Dar!<33.

Just created a blog,yay?(:

ok,figured i've too much time to waste rotting at home so i decided to just make a blog with the help of cheryl. Hmm,let's start with my screwed up breakfast! I was eating my yummy cup-noodles and suddenly my mom came home when i didn't even know she went out and she starts nagging on how i must pass my exams and she asks me, "can you take 'O' levels next year?" and i got so pissed off i just quickly ate finish my noodles and went to my room-.-. Me and Baby's first month anniv this coming wed,i've stupid elective modules till 2++ wondering if i should go to school:( why's my school so freaking strick on attire-.-especially the hair?i wish mr.koh(both) would just drop dead and die..
I MISS VIVIAN ALOTT<33!

will continue to update my blog later on tonight or smth(:

Blaah,too bored just gonna update blog and end it here for today!
Didn't really eat lunch,was soo hungry but nvrmind i went finding snacks all over the house and ate alot of random stuff hahah:D. Was watching TV till like 3+ then i fell asleep and woke up around 5,i woke up missing baby so much i don't know why. Cher'says it's standard,hahah ok. Grandparents came back from chinatown around 5:30 they bought 3 packs of nasi-lemak for me,brother and maid to eat for dinner..i ate finish mine and was still hungry,my maid gave me both pieces of her chicken wing and half packet of her rice saying she couldn't finish.How nice of her?:D
ending off here now,will blog again tomorrow(:

Val<3Vivian Forever!